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Friday, November 2, 2012

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

3h 55min more.

So far all the papers have been okay! SS was surprisingly manageable. And everything else was okay too especially A Maths and E Maths P2 which were really good!

Left Physics which is tomorrow (in the afternoon fortunately), and Lit on Friday and then it's Science MCQ next Thursday!!! Super super excited cant believe this torturing week is almost over.

POST O'S CELEBRATION: This Friday going to go on a Maplestory spree (is there such term??) with Daryl and start to catch up on all that we have missed out on!! After that going on a short 2D1N trip to Batam this Saturday (yes even before O's officially end) so yayyerzz ~_~. Prom night/Grad night on 19/11, Legoland trip with cousins on 24/11 and (most likely) going to Cambodia for 5D4N at around 29/11!!!! AND NOT TO MENTION GOING OUT WITH FRIENDS LIKE TEN THOUSAND TIMES TO SHOP AND EAT hahahaha everyone will be sick of seeing me but I don't care.

And thinking of starting a new blog all over again which is kinda redundant but aiya I cannot take it LOL. Plus like majority my photos from past entries suddenly disappeared so irritating and so sad all my photos gone :'( :'( huogai who ask me go and keep use image URL from Facebook LOL. Going to create photobucket or use my Flickr account (that I auto already had cause of my Yahoo email) and start to use a proper image hosting website. HOPEFULLY ON FRIDAY I'LL BE ABLE TO CREATE A NEW BLOG AND START AFRESH (again for the ten thousandth time). Or I just try to start afresh here again LOL sighhhhhhhh my photos T_____T.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Three subjects down, five more to go.

Today had A Maths lessons in school, wasn't very good though. Left at 3.30pm and went to Tampines inter. Ate at Pepper Lunch (again) and so sad cause I specifically told the person not to put spring onions but they did -____- Ughhh those green things :-(. Oh and KP bought Awfully Chocolate ice cream and I had some of it for the first time (it was gooood) before Pepper Lunch and after that he bought me this fish shaped Korean ice cream thing cause I wanted it HAHAHAHA (my favvvv in Indonesia) and it was amazing ~_~.

Next O Level's paper starts on Monday.. And then that whole week I'll be having papers everyday except for Wednesday. Part of me wants to get it over and done with but part of me is wishing that day would never/take its time to come :-(. So far papers have been okay. English was disappointing and during my paper one I just spit out all the vocab words "maelstrom of excitement and anxiety stirred in me" "landed myself in this predicament" "zenith of my success" "in doldrums" don't even know if I used it correctly but heck, it's already over. Lost like a few marks in E Maths Paper 1 but so far very very very very good for Paper 2 :-). Just not sure about the estimating of median and the graph questions cause it depends on the marker's scheme and whether they will accept my answers or not!!!! HOPE ALL GOES WELL AND I CAN GET A1. L1R4 of 11 points leggo leggo leggo.

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Squeezing another ranting paragraph here cause I don't want to spam my entire blog with ranting posts.

Honestly why why why why I know it's no use complaining but uggghhhhh seriously two Science two humans and two A Maths papers in four days??????? Maybe I'm just too lousy with planning my time and study plan properly maybe others can manage having five subjects/six papers all in four days but I can't I really don't even know how I'm going to survive that week.

I can't just don't care as much as I should care because this isn't just mock exams, this isn't prelims, this isn't end of year exams already. This is O's, the real deal, the papers that we have been preparing for four years. I can't afford to screw this up.

People tell me that I can do it and all that but what if I can't? What if I'm just not smart enough? What if my best isn't the best for Cambridge? What if I'm not as good as what people think I am? Just because I'm in 4E1, I'm thrown into this position where I'm supposed to get all distinctions, where I'm supposed to be that smart and hardworking girl, but I'm not like that. I laze around for three hours after doing one A Maths paper. I can't even finish learning one chapter of SS without getting bored and restless. I'm not that kind of girl who can sit at her table for seven hours and study non stop. I'm sick of studying and I'm honestly starting to detest myself for being so lazy and unmotivated.

Tomorrow/today I shall focus on SS.. MUST MUST MUST. Thought I had five days to study SS. Then the five days turned to four which turned to three and now left two lol aiyo this Jerlyn.

SS YOU MAKE ME SO FRUSTRATED.